I_N_D_E_C_I_S_I_O_N .

So, did everybody enjoy the Blogathon yesterday?? Wasn't it so much fun !!

A big SHOUT OUT and THANK YOU to those BONZA SHEILAS over at SITS and SAUCY EATS . I'm talking , of course, about HEATHER and TIFFANY .

You totally ROCK, ladies. Take a well deserved bow !!

RHEA , over at TEXAS WORD TANGLE , recently did this POST about INDECISION .

It started me thinking about the subject, as some posts often do. As I was writing my comment to her post, I had one of those UH HUH moments, that sometimes creep up on you unexpectedly. More on that moment, later..

Indecision can sometimes play a part in the BIG and the SMALL decisions that I make in my life.

When faced with a big, life changing decision, I either research it and make a choice or I take a deep breath, hold my nose and take a flying leap into the waters of life. I think that's my Sagittarian coming to the fore. Not sure how much I believe in Astrology, but there sure are some traits that fit me !!

It's usually the smaller decisions that have me dithering about. Ask me to choose a place to go for lunch ? Good Luck !!! The friend, whom I lunch with most often, is as bad as I am. Sometimes I'm mildly surprised that we eventually pick a place...

Now, back to that EUREKA moment I had while commenting on Rhea's blog.

As some of you already know, I'm a KIWI . I've also been talking about moving home to NEW ZEALAND for awhile now.

I'm a trifle homesick and in many ways ready to go. There are some practical things that are holding the move up, the biggest one being the green stuff or lack of it. Moving household stuff and two dogs, not too mention two humans, is not cheap. However, that's surmountable, eventually...

HOWEVER, WHY THE HECK AM I, THE PERSON WHO HAS A TENDENCY TO HOLD HER NOSE AND JUMP, FEELING SO MANY INDECISIONS ABOUT THIS MOVE ???

Why am I dithering around about returning to ....

THIS


OR THIS


AM I NUTS OR WHAT ?? DO I NEED MY HEAD READ??

I think I came to a little bit of an understanding, when I read what popped out of my brain while I was making that comment on Rhea's blog. Below is what I wrote ...

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Karen said...
Yeah ... whether to stalk Johnny Depp or not ... and ... IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT !!!!!

Usually, I'm a kind of hold your nose and jump kind of gal. I either drown or I float...

Funny thing though, the biggest decision that I'm struggling with right now is going back to NZ.

I really, really want to go, because all my family is there. However, I've also become comfortable here. This is now my comfortable and known place.

In the end, I know in my heart, that I will be going home ... but it's going to be really hard to leave home to do that.

There has been a lot of tears over this decision. One good thing though, I can take SITS with me and everyone that I've met here , will only be a mouse click away...

October 14, 2008 8:54 AM '
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I think that's it in a nutshell. I've been here in the US for almost a quarter of my life. It now feels familiar. It now is home.

There are people here that have become family and good friends. Leaving them, is going to be as painful as leaving my family in New Zealand was.

I really will be leaving home to go home...

Realising all of that, doesn't mean that my indecisiveness has magically disappeared, but I think I'm starting to feel a little more at peace with the decision.

I'm aiming for next year :-)